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  Fall From Grace

  L.R. WRIGHT

  FELONY & MAYHEM PRESS • NEW YORK

  CONTENTS

  PROLOGUE

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Chapter 43

  Chapter 44

  Chapter 45

  Chapter 46

  Chapter 47

  Chapter 48

  Chapter 49

  Chapter 50

  Chapter 51

  AUTHOR’S NOTE

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  PROLOGUE

  Spring 1980

  THE EVENING RAIN fell into the thick rhododendron hedge behind the high school, making a crackling noise, like the sound of fire.

  People hurried from the parking lot toward the building, their greetings muffled by the rain, identities obscured by umbrellas.

  “Stop for a minute, Warren,” said Annabelle to her brother. They had come to see their friend, Bobby Ransome, graduate. “Smell. Spring’s in the air.”

  “Come on, Annabelle,” said Warren, hunching his shoulders against the rain.

  “What a sourpuss you can be,” Annabelle chided. “You act like an old man sometimes, you really do.”

  She swept past him, up the steps and into the school, and Warren, squinting upward, saw a billion raindrops falling like silver tracers through the light that flooded from the wide-open doors.

  Inside, he hung his jacket on one of the big hooks attached to the corridor wall and ran his hands over his hair, shaking rainwater onto the floor. He looked around him, trying to summon nostalgia; he’d graduated from this school himself only a year ago.

  “Yo, Warren.” A former classmate rushed past, hand in hand with a girl Warren didn’t recognize.

  “Yo, Ken,” Warren called after him heartily.

  He saw Old Man McMurtry approaching and felt immediately guilty, as if he were still a student. The principal stuck out his hand. “Good to see you, Warren,” he said as they shook hands. “I hear you’re doing well.” He clapped Warren on the shoulder and moved on.

  How would he know if I’m doing well? thought Warren resentfully. Then he remembered that it was McMurtry’s wife’s Ford Escort he’d been working on all week. And that made him feel damn pleased.

  Meanwhile, the rain pattered steadily upon the forest that blanketed the steep hillside behind the rhododendrons.

  Warren saw Annabelle chattering away to her friend Erna, so he sauntered into the auditorium—well it was a gym, really, but it had been set up like an auditorium, with a groundsheet on the floor and a couple of hundred metal chairs, and the red curtains drawn across the front of the stage—and looked around for Bobby. But he couldn’t see him.

  The rest of the graduating class was there, though, all sitting together, boys with boys, girls with girls; there was a lot of laughing and fooling around going on and Warren could tell every one of them was feeling damn important. Cock-of-the-walk, that’s how they all felt. He looked at them affectionately, remembering.

  Near the back of the auditorium, Harry and Velma Grayson watched their son as he documented the evening’s events with his camera. Determined, concentrated, he flew from group to group, crouching, standing on chairs, apparently oblivious to protests, plaintive or exasperated. Velma was always relieved when somebody smiled into Steven’s camera. Since he obviously wasn’t going to be in any of his own pictures, Velma had brought her little Instamatic with its built-in flash, and she raised it to her eye now, and snapped.

  A tall young man with dark hair and a bony face, wearing a dark suit and a tie that’s too long; a camera is slung around his neck—he’s holding it in his right hand; he’s caught in mid-stride, heading for the side of the auditorium, looking back over his shoulder at the people spilling in from the back.

  Outside, the rain continued. It rattled among the rhododendrons, was absorbed by the forest, and inveigled its way into the small clearing between hedge and forest that was a favorite haunt of students craving a smoke, or a beer, or drugs, or sex, between or after classes.

  Bobby Ransome’s Aunt Hetty sat in the first row, close to the wall. In her big black purse was a card in which she’d written heartfelt words of commendation. She wished Bobby’s parents could have been there, but she didn’t mind standing in for them. Widowed years earlier by an automobile accident, she had no children of her own. And her pride in her nephew was particularly welcome now. It was a distraction. Her older sister, Lucy, had just left Sechelt to live in Barbados, and Hetty was by herself in that great big old house. That great big empty old house.

  Mr. McMurtry finally dimmed the lights, and the audience hushed.

  The red curtains were drawn back, revealing the school choir. Annabelle, sitting next to Erna, smiled to herself at the sight of Bobby Ransome up there. He was not a person you’d expect to find singing in a choir. He’d been a bad boy once, Bobby had. He was a lot older than the rest of the graduating class, because by rights he should have finished four years earlier, at the same time as Annabelle. But he’d gotten into trouble, and dropped out, and Annabelle considered it nothing short of miraculous that he’d eventually gone back.

  His fair hair hung long and thick over the collar of his shirt and Annabelle, watching him as the choir began to sing, was filled with tender, private feelings. Oh he’d been trouble, all right. But she had loved his muscular thighs.

  She couldn’t hear his voice among all the rest. But then there was a song that he sang alone, and Annabelle, watching, listening, was at first surprised, and then enraptured.

  “Amid the dark shades,” Bobby sang, “of the lonely ash grove.” He leaned into the music, and Annabelle felt invisible, in the near-darkness, as if she were watching him dream.

  “I first met my dear one,” Bobby sang, “the joy of my heart.” Annabelle’s eyes were on his face, on the flat planes of his cheeks, the green glinting of his eyes, on the chunk of hair that had fallen across his forehead—and on his mouth, which moved, as he sang, in a manner somehow foreign. And yet it seemed familiar.

  “With sorrow, deep sorrow,” she heard Bobby sing, “in search of my love.” The piano accompaniment wandered in glorious dissonance and Annabelle watched Bobby’s mouth and thought: maybe his lips moved like that when they touched my breasts, my body; as if they were singing. She turned to look across the aisle at Wanda, but saw only the flood of Wanda’s dark, unruly hair, and the slightness of her body. Then Wanda lifted her hand to smooth her hair away from her cheek and Annabelle saw that her face was flushed. Annabelle nodded, satisfied.

  His aunt, hearing him sing, recognized the voice of Bobby’s father when he was young.

  Warren, hearing him sing, grinned and shook his head admiringl
y, and thought, people sure do keep a lot of secrets.

  And outside the spring rain spattered soft and gray into the clearing, which was for the moment empty.

  Later, Annabelle shrugged into her coat, which she had draped over the back of her chair, and told Warren, “I’ll get a ride home with Erna.”

  Bobby swung down from the stage and went first to his aunt and then to Wanda, who blushed crimson at the sight of him. “Not here, Bobby,” she said, as he leaned toward her.

  A broad-shouldered, fair-haired man in his early twenties wearing gray pants and a light tweed sport coat, bending to a young woman with a mass of dark, curly hair, his lips pressed against the curve of her neck; the young woman’s face is lifted, her eyes luminous, lips slightly apart.

  “Goddamn it,” said Wanda furiously to Steven Grayson and his camera.

  Bobby turned so fast that Annabelle blinked.

  “Beat it,” said Bobby, and Steven shrugged and laughed and backed away, but not before he’d snapped another photograph.

  A face with a wide forehead, high cheekbones, a strong chin; the eyes are narrowed; the man’s right fist is raised, and his face is suffused with anger.

  “Fuck,” said Bobby, taking a step forward, but Steven had melted into the crowd.

  Annabelle said quickly, “I heard you guys are getting married.” She smiled at them. “Congratulations.”

  Warren, hearing this, was embarrassed. He felt it wasn’t proper for a recently divorced person to be congratulating other people on getting engaged.

  “Thanks, Annabelle.” Bobby pulled Wanda close to him and rested his chin on top of her head; his hands held her firmly, almost—but not quite—cupping her breasts. Wanda tried to push his hands away.

  “I may be getting married again myself,” said Annabelle, “before too long.”

  Warren looked at her in amazement; this was the first he’d heard of it. Bobby looked surprised, too. And Wanda looked relieved, which Warren could certainly understand.

  Annabelle reached up to pat Bobby’s cheek, and then she leaned down and gave Wanda a kiss on the cheek. “Be happy,” she said, and sashayed off toward the door, where Erna was waiting.

  “That’s quite a woman, your sister,” said Bobby to Warren, watching her.

  At the door Annabelle put her arm around Erna’s shoulder. “Ready?”

  “Sure. Let’s go,” said Erna.

  On the way out to the parking lot Annabelle said, “Guess what, Erna. I’m pregnant.”

  A woman laughing in the rain, her head flung back; thick, tawny hair spills across her shoulders, her hands are jammed into the pockets of her raincoat; she’s illuminated by the light from a lamppost on the edge of the parking lot.

  Warren left the school with Bobby and Wanda and Bobby’s aunt, and he and Wanda waited awkwardly in the rain while Bobby saw his aunt to her car. They watched, at a distance, as she fumbled in her big black purse and handed something to him. A card, it looked like. Bobby read it, and gave her a hug.

  A small, lanky woman with gray hair pinned on top of her head peers around a young man’s broad back; her expression is cautious—curious. The shot is taken from behind some shrubbery. She is looking directly into the camera.

  The rain was still falling. Warren heard it in the rhododendron hedge, and he glanced in that direction and saw the extravagant blossoms glowing fitfully, stroked by somebody’s headlights.

  Bobby slapped the roof of his aunt’s car and waved as she drove slowly away. Then he joined Warren and Wanda. He grabbed Wanda and kissed her.

  Fair-haired man, dark-haired woman in an embrace; next to them, a man of medium build with short, dark hair, wearing a poplin jacket; his left hand is pressed against the back of his neck and he’s looking toward the school, his face scrunched up in embarrassment.

  Bobby released Wanda. He turned to Warren, his face aglow. “I am looking into my future, Warren,” he said, “and I am seeing it shine, I am seeing it shine.”

  Warren was uncomfortable with this kind of talk. But he saw the truth of it in Bobby’s eyes. He punched Bobby’s shoulder, and they grabbed each other in a mock wrestling match, and their laughter and Wanda’s shrieks drifted through the evening with the rain.

  Summer 1990

  i

  “Happy birthday, Mom,” said Steven, and Velma’s eyes filled instantly with tears.

  “I knew you wouldn’t forget,” she said into the phone. She turned and looked out the front window of her small house, into the branches of the willow tree; their green tendrils hung low enough to brush the lawn.

  “I never forget,” said Steven. “Have I ever forgotten your birthday?”

  “No,” said Velma, smiling at the willow tree.

  “Or Mother’s Day?”

  “No,” said Velma, “no, you haven’t.”

  “Or Christmas? I’ve never forgotten Christmas, either, have I?”

  Velma laughed aloud at this.

  “I thought about sending flowers,” he said, “but that would have been coals to Newcastle, right?”

  “Right,” said Velma, smiling. It was the middle of June, and her garden was ablaze with roses. And she had red geraniums in the windowboxes, and pink ones in pots on the patio. And in hanging baskets she’d planted fuchsia and petunias and verbena and trailing lobelia. Yes, if there was anything she didn’t need more of, it was flowers.

  “It’s particularly lovely out there today,” she said, “with the sun shining so bright. I wish you could see it.” She said this deliberately, knowing that it might upset him, because she resented the fact that she hardly ever got to see him. After all, it wasn’t as if he was half a continent away, like Lettie Charles’s boy.

  “Yeah, me too,” he said, which she didn’t believe for a moment. He was a real Vancouverite now, Steven was. “Now I’ve got you on the phone,” he went on, “what’s the news?” He used the exact same phrase, every time he called.

  Velma, smiling, reached into the kitchen for the stool that sat next to the refrigerator. “Well,” she said, looking out at the willow tree, marshaling her recollections, “let’s see.” She made herself comfortable on the stool and offered him, one by one, all the fragments of information that had come her way, since the last time they’d talked.

  Velma was extremely surprised when at the close of her narrative Steven said, “I’ve got an idea, Mom. How would you feel about putting me up in my old room for a while?”

  She didn’t understand him, at first. She turned around on the stool and focused her gaze on the telephone, which was attached to the wall. She pressed the receiver more tightly against her ear. “What did you say, dear?”

  Steven laughed. “I’ve got an urge to come home for a while, Mom.”

  “But Steven,” she said. Her heart was soaring; amazement had done it. “Steven. Oh, Steven.”

  “I’d have to tie up some loose ends first,” he said. “Take me ten days or so. I could be over there—say by the end of the month. In time for the July First weekend. How about it?”

  “I’m absolutely delighted, Steven. I’m so happy I feel like crying,” said Velma, blinking rapidly.

  When she’d hung up, Velma went outside and got her clippers. She picked an enormous bouquet of roses, pricking her hands in the process, but it was worth it to bring such gorgeous blooms inside.

  She stood in the middle of the yard, holding the clippers, the basket of roses over her arm, and looked for a moment at the house. It stared back at her, squinting through narrow windows. She thought for some reason of the first house they’d lived in, the one Harry had built with his own hands, on three acres out in the bush. Steven had had a room upstairs whose windows looked out into the branches of a big tree. He’d gone in and out of that window as often as he’d used the door.

  The house was blurry because of her tears.

  At long last, Steven was coming home. After ten years of self-imposed exile, Steven was coming home to Sechelt.

  Summer days stretched before
her warm and fragrant and she saw Steven sunning himself in her backyard and Steven lounging in front of the television and Steven laughing at one of her jokes and Steven smacking his lips over homemade hamburgers cooked on the barbecue and Steven taking pictures, of course, always taking pictures. And some of these images were true and some were shot through with lies.

  Velma peered into the hot summery future and a small black presentiment lodged itself inside her. She placed her hand flat upon her chest, pretending her hand was a magnet: she would pull that bad feeling right out of there and fling it into her compost heap.

  And then it retreated, and Velma was relieved. She looked again with eagerness toward the future, and did not know that the murder of her son awaited her there.

  ii

  The highway was clogged with traffic; the two o’clock ferry had arrived, having crossed Howe Sound from Horseshoe Bay, just northwest of Vancouver. The ferry had docked at Langdale, a village at the southern end of the forty-five-mile-long strip of British Columbia that is known as the Sunshine Coast.

  Among the vehicles heading away from Langdale that bright day in June lurched an elongated pickup truck, the back of it loaded, the load covered with a tarpaulin.

  After Langdale and Gibsons Landing, the road wound inland through countryside occupied by people on acreages. There were horses in some of the pastures, and chicken coops near some of the houses. On some of these properties old car bodies and chunks of unidentifiable machinery lay about. There were swing sets in some of the yards, and tires hung from tree branches, and from behind the wobbly fence fronting one piece of property an ancient dog, irritable with toothache or stomach distress, barked at the slowly passing traffic.

  The highway wended northwest from Gibsons, carrying its burden of traffic toward Sechelt, and about halfway between the two villages it made an abrupt ninety-degree turn and headed directly for the sea. But a gravel road continued northward. To the right a long, narrow strip of cleared land bordered the gravel road, backing up against a forest that spilled quickly upward to cover the flanks of a low-flung mountain. In the middle of the clearing, a building stood behind two old gas pumps, long since disconnected.